Radio Silence.

I’ve had a lot on my mind.

I’m 3 months pregnant, unexpectedly (which sounds so naive whenever I say it, but it’s true). I also know this is an incredible blessing, the timing sucks but we’re very happy to add to our family. I’ve so many friends who struggle beyond reasonable struggle to have babies and here I am accidentally growing one. The world isn’t fair, I’m coming to peace with that.

What’s been eating at my mind is this: We aren’t fully covered by health insurance, and the public discharge times in Western Australia for a second baby is wild… 6 hrs. I’m terrified that birth will trigger the same hormone drops that led to my anxiety attacks in 2014 and I won’t have that round-the-clock support in those crazy few days.

Anxiety is no fun. This particular worry has been running races in my head the last couple of months. It’s only now that I sit down to write that I have clarity about what God is teaching me about the sword of the spirit… Continue reading →